Biphasic: Day 40

There always must be some complication, I suppose. Curse you, Murphy.

While giving myself that extra cycle of sleep a night seems helpful in concept, the reality is that I forgot how my body works. Actually getting to sleep at 12:30am is incredibly difficult for me. I don't know if anyone else experiences this, but sometimes when I go to sleep (mostly every time I try to get to bed in the first few a.m. hours), I instinctively know that I won't sleep. I can toss and turn to find the optimal position, but I end up looking at the clock at least once an hour. I do sleep, but that sleep is interrupted and spread thinly between frustrated waking periods. It's ironic, but any time I try to get to sleep early to prepare myself for an event or such the next day, I inevitably fail to sleep soundly at all. If I were to add the additional cycle after my scheduled sleep times, all would be fine, but I have work at 6am on the weekends

So I'm not sure what I'll do. I think I'll try once more to get to sleep early. Perhaps I'll wind down with some relaxing tea and better prepare myself for sleep mentally. The moment I lie down, I'll know if I'll stay awake or not. If that is the case, I'll get right back up and engage in non-alarming activity till 2am. Sleep seems so simple when you just let it be. But I'm just not satisfied with misunderstanding something for simplicity's sake.